I have so many questions. Questions that want to be answered so bad. I want to talk to Him. I want to just sit and talk to God. It's okay that I can't see Him most of the time, but sometimes, like today, every part of me wants to talk to Him, and hear really truly how He feels and what He thinks. So often, I make decisions based on what I think He's wanting me to do. But today I want to know for certain. Long distance relationships are so hard. Yes, Jesus, God, the Holy Spirit, are near and very present. But on my end, it's so often very distant. And I get weary. Weary of the distance. I want to know for certain His will in certain areas. And I want to hear it straight from Him. I want to hear Him.
I feel like some things like wether I should rob or lie are givens, and I don't need to "hear" from God on those to know for sure His will, but other things, simple everyday things, decisions that impact small or big areas of my life, that don't have a clear path that everyone is supposed to follow... that's where I get frustrated.
I guess it's just one of those days where the communication that I have presently with God just isn't cutting it. And I know that I want to do His will, so all I know to do is sit still, and be in awe that He even cares to listen. And I know He cares more than I do in guiding me to the right decisions, no matter how small or insignificant they may seem to others.
I love Him, and I want to love Him more.
I'm so thankful. So thankful God knows our thoughts even before we think them. I'm especially thankful that He answers.