Thursday, May 13, 2010

Biding My Time

Where I am staying at right now is seriously less than a block away from an interstate. Maybe the distance of half a block away. Our apartment complex is the closest to the interstate. There is nothing between our building and this interstate, except for the road.
And I hate it. I despise the city. Everything about it. Instead of waking up to the sound of birds singing, I wake up to the sound of cars whizzing by.
And there's houses, churches, everywhere. I thought where I was staying at back in college was bad. But this is way worse. It's not the first time that I've lived in the city, but it's been atleast 3 years since I've spent this long in one, and I'd forgotten how awful it really is.
Even though I'm extremely grateful for the opportunity to do my practicum at Florida Hospital, I will be so relieved when I can go back to the smaller city. Even though it's still bad there, and I feel like I have no privacy, it's way better  than here.
I am so glad I was raised in the country. And I can't wait to move back someday. I long for the day where I can go for a walk and not hear a single car, and I can have my own garden, and sing without being heard,  breathe in air that smells fresh and clean, and have pets than can roam free.
People say that one gets use to crowded spaces and constant noise and activity, but I don't want to get use to it. Ever.
For now I will bide my time here, and get away to the state park with friends any chance I get like I did last weekend.
This afternoon at my favorite devotional site I found this quote. I thought it quite fitting to what I'm dealing with now.

"It was not God's purpose that His people should be crowded into cities, huddled together in terraces and tenements. In the beginning He placed our first parents in a garden amidst the beautiful sights and attractive sounds of nature, and these sights and sounds He desires men to rejoice in today. Light has been given me that the cities will be filled with confusion, violence, and crime, and that these things will increase till the end of this earth's history. It is time for our people to take their families from the cities into more retired localities, else many of the youth, and many also of those older in years, will be ensnared and taken by the enemy.
'Out of the cities; out of the cities!"--this is the message the Lord has been giving me.'"
Maranatha, pg142


  1. I've always lived in the country and I've always taken it for granted. Hearing you say how hard it is to live in the city gives me a new appreciation for the blessing of country life. It must be sooo hard for you, knowing how secluded your home was here. Sending a hug your way! You're in my prayers, I'm hoping it'll get easier for you.

  2. Yes, Sara.... very well put. We shall escape again today!